I've said many times that facebook seriously makes me want to puke or just blow my head off and be done. What does that say about me? I'm happy that people are happy and everyone deserves to be happy. I don't wish anything bad on anyone. But all that happiness makes me want to slice open my wrists and just bleed out...sorry to be so graphic! (And no, this isn't a cry for help. I don't like pain, just making a point.)
So let's play "Diagnose Annie"
Question: What is wrong with me???
A) I'm lacking the "giddy" gene? I've never been Polly Positive, so am I Negative Nancy? I just try to be realistic...and reality isn't all that pretty. Haha! This takes me back to my phrase...inhale positive and exhale negative! I've really got to work on that one!
B) I'm just jealous of people who brag about how wonderfully super and beyond fantastic their life is? Am I that miserable in my own life? NO! I have the best son ever (in my opinion). My husband is my best friend and we have a great time together. I have the greatest friends on the planet and my family is awesome! I don't think this one is it either.
C) I'm not the only one that feels this way...this is the one I hope you all pick ;)
D) I'm just a crazy ball of emotions and have no clue what direction my life is going, therefore people who seem to have it all together make me question my very existence. And I've gotten wrapped up in this crazy, drama-filled world and I just need to step back and re-evaluate things.
I said from the beginning that I am at a point in my life that I'm really trying to figure things out and this is just one of my "issues" that needs addressed! I hope people don't think I'm just a miserable old hag that hates everyone that is happy...that's not at all what I mean. I just want to understand why some happiness brings me joy and some brings me anger?!?
I've got to learn to let go and just "give it to God." How do I learn to do that? I have to learn how to give it all to Him...the good, the bad, and everything in between.
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